Monthly Archives: February 2013

Last Goodbye


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Torn between emotions

Now gone dead and dry,

The anguish within

and  dreams in my eyes

Your eloquent promises

That agony, those lies

My soul seeks salvation

I  Say my last good bye



I writhe in pain

I crawl I bleed

The world turns around

But you pay no heed

My shrieks my sighs

My suffering and tears

Pierce through the skies

But fail to reach your ears



The solitude once my pal

Now stabs me so deep

It cripples my soul

I cringe I weep



I stare at the sky

with wait in my eyes

on the threshold of next world

on the last step of life



There’s a tug there’s a struggle

between death and life

Come free me from these shackles

Come and end this strife



Come free me from the bondage

of love, life and death

And give me that lap

where I take my last breath.


The Lost Bird



Warbling in the sky

a chirping bird was I

Humming a canorous song

in the land where I belong



Then one day I had to leave

that verdant place  that sand

and I became a forlorn bird

in a faraway distant land



In that strange place

I was left all alone

missing my home and wondering

where those days have gone

Will those days return?

will there be an end

to this woe of pain?

will I ever find a friend?



Then one day I saw

a flock of birds chirping loud

and wondered if I would find

a dear friend in that crowd



Yes, said a little bird

in sweetest voice I ever heard

I  had found a friend at last

so pretty, demure and shy

We spent each day each moment

just rollicking with joy



But one day that friend vanished

like a shadow in thin air

I searched I screamed I cried

but Oh it was nowhere



He might have moved to

pastures more green

did my love lack

that truth, that sheen?



The sky was sneering

and laughing at me

that very sky

where I once did reign



I sat down to count

my losses n gain

that love those tears

was all this in vain?

was I so foolish?

was I insane?

he could never could read

that deep love that pain

as perhaps my feelings

were not ornate but plain



That love got lost

in the flux of time

the autumn shroud has silenced

that faint vernal chime



But this deplumed bird

will resurge again

n I’ll rise like a phoenix

from ashes of pain.




They tell me your moon is too far

then why are you craving for him

his gleam his glitter is not for you

your share is just one ray so dim



They say you have fallen for a stone

whom no love no feeling can move

but still the love of this one stone

over thousands of roses I chose



They say that in the end

I will get nothing but pain

But loves sees no reason no logic

It never sees losses or gain



He is not yours he never was

some say scoffing with a grin

Come my saviour and ‘redeem’ me

they say loving you is a ‘sin’

The Winter Rain



Its that time of the year again

That chill that calm the winter rain

I stand at the window ,

sipping coffee steaming hot

Seeing clouds play cupid,

giving wings to my thoughts



I so love the Rains

for the nostalgia they evoke

A warm blanket, cold nights

that fireplace and smoke

Come alive in the mind

as if the slumber just broke

I see those lil boots

that I now did outgrow

How we ran around in those

Wet and  drenched head to toe

Feels  like it was just yesterday

and not ages ago



Same coffee same rain

but the times were insane

We’d run , slip and jump

on that bumpy terrain

How we enlivened with laughter

Each street and every lane



Lost in my thoughts I see a  lil kid,  who brings me back to “today’

Cold and hungry  sad and homeless

He is rebuked and shooed away

He is running too he is running fast

but not for fun not to play

he is running  to find a shelter

From harsh cold and rain

I see him fighting with hunger

I see him fighting with pain



Rain for him  is not a time

To play ,to jump and run

He has to earn his loaf of bread

Fight his battle and get things done



But  life  failed to dim his smile

and the glint from his sparkling eyes

I wish some day life smiles at him

And answer all his “whys”



His eyes met mine

and we shared a smile

So bright, so pure,,

I loved the warmth of his smile



I smiled back too

but a guilt crossed my mind

Is there nothing I can do

I wondered I whined

Then voice says to me

There are millions in his clan

Its God who plans our fate

It’s  just a part of His plan



I sit down and take a sip from the cup

Back to the coffee back to my world



But that’s life and its true

That in just a day or two

I’ll Forgot the kid forget his world

Isn’t it what we so often DO?

And wonder  I ponder at questions few..

How do I define people how do I define me n you

are we heart less or just helpless  … ?

or May be both I confess.



Then my thoughts take me afar

To that land across the sea

the seashore sun n sand

That was the place to be



An early winter  evening

of twenty eleven(2011)

Our abode for a week

the place was heaven



The dawn of a new life

And  a life time of glee

Same rain same winters

and those clouds floating free

The  hearts humming a soulful note

mesmerizing as the sea

reminiscing events of  past

all the moments of years four

A time full of warmth

full of magic n amore

talking of all what was

and of what will be

Here we talk of our tomorrows

Near the  window , you and me



The rain captured and treasured

all  the moments  in its heart

That place that time and us

we will never be apart

And years down the line

we’ll cherish this start



A small world is weaved in this box by now


Some thoughts some  dreams

and some journeys our own

A few poems from that evening

some faces unknown

A blue scarf of silk

so carelessly thrown

On the couch besides the window

Where all my thoughts have grown

That  red coffee mug

`inscribed with the word “cheers”

That saw me growing strong

Through smiles and tears

Through confusions and worries

of my growing years

Some questions unanswered

some moments  so dear.



Today right here at  this moment

. I  add some more to the vault .

some fights a few giggles,

and a laughter so bright.

some whispers of the soul

and the promises few

That chit-chat , long walks

some tiffs and frowns too


They’ll  come with the  next rain

to delight to enchant

when the raindrops  touch the earth

and capture  my heart

I so long to feel  the spell

and the magic yet again…

And see the treasures come alive

in next winter rain.

Castles of dreams



That truly precious time,
carefree days of childhood
I so wish to re-live
if I ever could

Till day in my memories
I carry a vivid list
of all those lil temptations,
I never could resist.

Those cookies, that box of chocolates,
that candy-floss and dolls
which I hated to share
even with best of my pals.

Gazing at the stars and trying to find
the brightest of them all
then announcing “That’s mine”

Staring at the sky
and waiting to see
the fairies who lived there
on the moon above the sea

Often wonder and think
Do they really live there,
could it really be?
Yes, coz grandma told me
so true it has to be

How do they look like?
Just like you n me?
Will I ever get to see them
O grandma tell me ..

Waiting for Santa and his sleigh
on those cold Christmas days
Will he bring all those gifts
as everyone says?

What will I get this Christmas
One new doll? new dress?
Santa knows what I want
He’ll bring both I guess.

Wishing on the rainbows
Wishing on the shooting star
Feeling such a deep bond
with those strange things so afar

Scribbling words and smily faces
on a huge steamy glass
erasing thoughts and paint again
on that canvas of glass

Weaving stories and dreams
around castles of sand
The calm sea stands a witness
to those times so grand

In a rainy day of may
running off to the orchards to play
shaking the branches of apples and pine
and feeling those lil drops falling
on your face and mine
like a shower of His love
like a blessing divine

Time keeps on moving
nothing’s forever, nothing lasts
like those words on the glass
in a moment its past.

But the memories remain
in mind so close so clear
Those moments live and blossom
in my smiles and tears
to cherish in times to come
to cherish in my mellower years…

Life etc.



Some rhymes and verses

Some thoughts gone astray ,

Some travels some journeys

And meeting life on the way,

Some stories  from the past

Some trips down the lane ,

Some moments of bliss

Some feelings insane,

Waltzing through the roads

on a journey called Life